Hey guys!
A moment for this jumpsuit.
Or rather 3 moments because me, Hope, and Mindy all showed up to speak at VidSummit wearing the POPFLEX Go with the Flow Jumpsuit without planning it and I was like ???! It means so much to me when friends genuinely support one another because I’ve been in insincere “friendships” where your worth is based on certain numerical values or how “popular” you are. It is disgusting, dehumanizing and the reason why I have such bad social anxiety.
I’ll never forget the time someone didn’t bother to even look at me when I said hi to them, and then when they overheard who I was (eew) and looked me up (double eew) they changed their attitude 180 and tried to be my friend (eew x 1000). Then on the flip side, I’ve been made to realize how I no longer matter to someone by accidentally finding out during a dinner conversation with the entire friend group that I was the only one not invited to the party. And to be clear, things like this aren’t of the past. The latter literally happened last week.
Growing up I was never popular so I’ve always been hyper-aware of my station in social hierarchies. I wish I wasn’t affected by such things (as I myself do not care for fame, followers or money – to me these things are simply the side effects of building what you love), however when others judge me for it or rather the lack of it, I can’t help but be entirely engulfed by the feeling of worthlessness.
Anyway, don’t worry, for the most part, this year has been good to me. I’ve been so fortunate to have crossed paths with kind people who reciprocate the same affection and respect I have for them. Thank you to the real ones for the deep belly laughs and the ugly cry sessions – your friendship heals my heart with trust and fills it up with so much love.
Wow, this post really went from jumpsuits to unwinding some serious social trauma didn’t it? ? Thanks for listening!
